September 2011
I can barely see before me through this haze, so I close my eyes aren I count the days. Last night I was so anxious, I walked outside, inside there are mirrors but out here I can hide from those songs and those moments that burn in my mind. It’s hard to forget when they replay all the time. I look forward for see what I saw years ago. Is there an end to this long road, I’ll never know.
I remember the time when we drove down the street, that song played but once but the memory’s on repeat. What ever happened to taking it slow? Now I spend each long second just praying that you don’t go. But what I reap what I sow, so please give me a chance to articulate my thoughts. I hope you can see my beauty before it rots. I’ve tried everything to keep my sickness in line but I lack proper balance and the ground is unkind.
If you give me a chance I swear I’ll do my best. All you need to do is love me and I’ll do the rest. I’ve studied too long and now here’s the final test. I hope my answers don’t get stuck inside my chest. You don’t know how long I’ve kept the light on just in hopes that someone will come during the night, take the blanket that sits heavy at my feet, and lay down with me so I can feel the sweetest heat. Because nights get gold here but I never dress the part.
The piercing wind can’t compare to this frozen heart. Have you ever stared desperately at moving cars, blurry? It’s your choice to accept. If you do, I will forever be in your debt. I’m not strong, or brave, hell, I don’t even shine. But I can be all yours if you can be mine. I follow too closely but don’t get the picture. I admire all the strokes but I don’t read the scripture. You say you’re not much, but I tell you you’re wrong. I don’t care if you’re just the words, cause I’ll compose the song. In the end, we’ll always be friends. I could kiss your hand or kiss your cheek, it’s all just depends. I know you’re broken, like me, and I’m all out of glue. But let’s share our shattered pieces and build something new.
